Love Letter

by Jun Shibata

calling my name, as if confirming
i can still hear your voice

i, who will turn into ash in the morning light,
replied softly to the moving cigarette ember

once again, i may have fallen in love
with a man with saddened eyes
with so many things lost and destroyed,
i wished to be filled to the brim even just for a moment.

someday when you're dead and gone
i will be fine
i have been alone for a long time
ever since i fell in love with you

should i be the one to go first
nothing will change for you
you can go on living without looking back.

it's not my style, but i believe in fate
i am looking for someone all the time

a free being who will not belong to anyone
just not found. it isn't me either.

if two shadows just for keeping company
mean something,
it will probably, probably make a difference
more than never having met at all.

someday when you've disappeared
i will be fine
the reason why i do not ask you anything
is to not love you more than now

should i be the one to go first
nothing will end for you
you can go on living without looking back.

someday when you're dead and gone
i will be fine
i have a feeling we will meet again
because you were somewhat like me.

should i be the one to go first
nothing will change for you
you can go on living without looking back
walking on... layering on...

flowing...
living on.